counting calories

ive been counting calories using an app on my ipod lately. glad to report that i have lost 3 pounds and have gotten out of the scary, almost-180 lapse i went through.

I've got to do it...

I've got to loose weight. it's not a choice anymore. I can't even fit into my "fat" jeans, and when I do they cut into the fat over my hipbones. it's gross, and by the end of the day I just want to run home to my sweatpants.

I went to a site that tells you how many calories you need per day to maintain your current weight, and it told me I needed to eat ~2000 calories a day. yuck. right now I weigh 175.3... I want to be 155 by the end of school (june 24), so that gives me 39 days to loose 20.3 pounds. that means I'm shooting to loose .6 of a pound a day (which ends up being 2100 calories I need to burn, but I'm trying to ignore that because I know I can't go a day without eating anything). so tomorrow I need to be 174.7. yess.

good news? 5 low-fat Ritz crackers are only 70 calories. and I fucking love Ritz.

xoxo

[[no thinspo pic today 'cuz i had to type his on my iPod<3]]