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Skinny Girl Diet
day 6

scale says 172.3 (-2.1 lbs)

breakfast:
vitamin water (87 cals)
vitamin water zero (0 cals)
TOTAL: 87 cals

lunch:
chipotle burrito (755 cals)
TOTAL: 755 cals

snack:
pretzel/hershey kiss/m&m (1) (35 cals)
hershy kiss (2) (44 cals)
pretzel/m&m (10) (100 cals)
TOTAL: 179 cals

dinner:
diet cheerwine (0 cals)
TOTAL: 0 cals

DAY TOTAL: 1021 cals (limit 650)

yeah, today was a big binge day. i was only planning to eat 1/2 of the chipotle burrito (which would only be ~377 cals) but then i went into binge mode and couldn't stop eating. i literally went into a food coma afterwords and could do nothing but lie on the couch my stomach hurt so much. i started thinking about purging and how badly i wanted to purge at that moment, but my entire family was in the house and would surely hear. i also was not planning on snacking so much when i made more pretzel/hershy kiss/m&m things for a holiday party i have tomorrow. speaking of the holiday party, i have no idea what i'm going to do. there's going to be junk food everywhere and we're eating lunch there. i'll probably have to look up calories on my phone. uggh.

this morning before my binge my mom walked into the kitchen and told me that i looked skinnier. i'm really upset because even though i have lost a little over 10lbs i still can't see a change and SHE thinks i'm getting smaller, which means she's going to start asking about my eating habits more.

i'm frightened of stepping on the scale tomorrow. im trying to enjoy the days where i lose a pound per day before my weightless shrinks to the fractions of a pound, and if today's binge makes me gain weight i'm going to be so upset.

xoxo