failure

Skinny Girl Diet
day 7

scale says 174.3 (+2.0 lbs)

breakfast:
nothing (0 cals)
TOTAL: 0 cals

lunch/holiday party:
macaroni
chips/gauc
hershy kiss/pretzel/m&m
sprite
orange crush
apple cider
fudge flies
chocolate straw
carrots/helluva good dip
roll
TOTAL: fghjgbyuki cals

dinner:
nothing (0 cals)
TOTAL: 0 cals

DAY TOTAL: too many cals (limit 650)

ate too much at the holiday party, don't really want to tally it up. gained two pounds from yesterday's binge, probably gained more today. god i hate myself so much.

now i have to go do a shitload of homework for school tomorrow. one more week till holiday.

i want a boyfriend so badly.

xoxo

success

Skinny Girl Diet
day 6

scale says 172.3 (-2.1 lbs)

breakfast:
vitamin water (87 cals)
vitamin water zero (0 cals)
TOTAL: 87 cals

lunch:
chipotle burrito (755 cals)
TOTAL: 755 cals

snack:
pretzel/hershey kiss/m&m (1) (35 cals)
hershy kiss (2) (44 cals)
pretzel/m&m (10) (100 cals)
TOTAL: 179 cals

dinner:
diet cheerwine (0 cals)
TOTAL: 0 cals

DAY TOTAL: 1021 cals (limit 650)

yeah, today was a big binge day. i was only planning to eat 1/2 of the chipotle burrito (which would only be ~377 cals) but then i went into binge mode and couldn't stop eating. i literally went into a food coma afterwords and could do nothing but lie on the couch my stomach hurt so much. i started thinking about purging and how badly i wanted to purge at that moment, but my entire family was in the house and would surely hear. i also was not planning on snacking so much when i made more pretzel/hershy kiss/m&m things for a holiday party i have tomorrow. speaking of the holiday party, i have no idea what i'm going to do. there's going to be junk food everywhere and we're eating lunch there. i'll probably have to look up calories on my phone. uggh.

this morning before my binge my mom walked into the kitchen and told me that i looked skinnier. i'm really upset because even though i have lost a little over 10lbs i still can't see a change and SHE thinks i'm getting smaller, which means she's going to start asking about my eating habits more.

i'm frightened of stepping on the scale tomorrow. im trying to enjoy the days where i lose a pound per day before my weightless shrinks to the fractions of a pound, and if today's binge makes me gain weight i'm going to be so upset.

xoxo

awkward eating

Skinny Girl Diet
day 5

scale says 174.4 (-1.1 lbs)

breakfast:
coffee+creamer (120 cals)
TOTAL: 120 cals

lunch: nothing
TOTAL: 0 cals

snack:
chocolate chip cookie (85 cals)
hershey kisses (4) (92 cals)
provolone cheese (1 slice) (90 cals)
TOTAL: 267 cals

dinner:
diet cheerwine (0 cals)
pickle (0 cals)
TOTAL: 0 cals

DAY TOTAL: 387 cals (limit 450)

it's incredible how munchies can add up so fast. i was very excited to have a good dinner tonight because i thought i hadn't really eaten anything else during the day, but it turns out i only had 63 calories to spare so i just skipped. that sucks. on a positive note i can't believe i lost 1.1 lbs since yesterday! it seems too true to believe, and i know it wasn't just water weight. the skinny girl diet really seems to be working, especially when my body was used to 1600-2000 calorie diet (yuck). have you guys tried SGD? how much did you loose?

xoxo

holidays

Skinny Girl Diet
day 4

scale says 175.5 (-0.3 lbs)

breakfast:
coffee+creamer (120 cals)
TOTAL: 120 cals

lunch: nothing
TOTAL: 0 cals

snack:
pickle (0 cals)
pretzel/hershykiss/m&m (6) (200 cals)
TOTAL: 175 cals

dinner:
2/3 cup scalloped potatoes (100cal)
tofu chicken strips (2) (73 cals)
1/2 green beans (15cals)
TOTAL: 223 cals

DAY TOTAL: 553 cals (limit 500)

so-so day. was doing amazing until i made those awesome pretzel/hershykiss/m&m things.



...aaaaand then i ate five of them. ech. i'm just really worried about holiday that's coming up. we're going to the beach to be with my dad's side of the family and they always have junk food everywhere all the time. i'm talking krispy kreme doughnuts, cookies, chocolate covered nuts, eggnog, sugared pecans, white chocolate pecans. it's bad. i gained so much weight last time that i practically became suicidal (no joke). i'm going to have to learn how to cope, restrict, and exercise it all off (the hotel has a gym).
it's terrible because i'm going to be watched by everyone about what i eat, especially by my mother. if they offer me food and i don't eat it it's kind of an insult. so i have no idea what im going to do.

skinny girl diet

i woke up today and was like "oh, ill eat something." the stuffing of my face continued until i got home. uggh.

Skinny Girl Diet
(starting on day 3=wednesday)

breakfast:
1 egg + butter (~110 cals)
1/2 glass OJ (50 cals)
coffee + creamer (~120 cals)

TOTAL: 280 cals

Lunch:

french fries (128 cals)

catchup (25 cals)

TOTAL: 153 cals

Snack:

3/4 cup white rice (153 cals)

TOTAL: 153 cals

DAY TOTAL: 586 cals (limit 400)

i wasn't making the smartest decisions today. forgot to weigh myself this morning but will definitely remember to tomorrow. i'm going to go walk off 186 cals on my treadmill and hope to god we don't have a sit-down dinner so that i can flush my food down the toilet.

xoxo
p.s. this pic again because i love it so much and this is exactly what i want to look like :]]]

hello world, i'm back

long story short: got sick, lost weight, became determined to loose some more.

cw: 175.8

meal plan for this week:
Breakfast-
"diet" toast (40 cals) + 1tbsp or 1/2 tbsp Nutella (100/50 cals)
1/2 glass orange juice (50 cals)
TOTAL: 190

Lunch:
Grilled cheese (2 slices bread = 80 cals, slice cheese = 45 cals, total = 125 cals)
Romaine salad (10 cals)
hard boiled egg (just whites, 17 cals)
TOTAL: 152

Dinner = 1/3 of whatever my family is eating (<500 cals)

BMR= 1600cals/day

just want to loose some of this weight.
i've got a crush on this one guy who i haven't seen since last year. had a couple classes together, flirted hard, but this year we have NO classes together and i never see him in the hallways or anything. i saw him after school in my chemistry room and we totally hit it off again so i deff want to see more of him. buuuuuut then there is this guy who i met over holiday and he's cute and really tall and has a BRITISH ACCENT (ohmygodiknow) and he is like totally in love with me, but he's an eighth grader (yeah i know. me = sophomore). its a little weird, but i find myself crushing on him at the same time. he invited me ice skating. i still have no idea what to do. eerk.

xoxo


^^ i'm getting one when i hit 100lbs<3

i lied.

i can do this. this is my form of suicide. i can make them wish they had me back. my time has come.
CW: 179.8